Gonna get up, throw some athletic gear on and go running for around an hour-ish. Then gonna work my way up to as long as I can without going too overboard!
Also: NO JUNK FOOD THIS SUMMER. TODAY WAS MY LAST DAY TO EAT ANYTHING UNHEALTHY. NO FAST FOOD, CUTTING BACK ON PORTIONS AND JUST EATING HEALTHIER STUFFS. <- the technical term of course.
It’s all about getting healthy. I want to be able to run for a while and not get winded after the first 2 minutes. I want to feel good and exercise releases endorphins and endorphins make you happy so: YEAH.
My goal is to be a better, healthier, more focused and dedicated Me. (:
THE GLADES. UNF <3 MOST HOTTEST GUY EVER. LOOOOVE HIIIMMM.
AND THIS SCENE. OHMG. JUST WATCHED THE ENTIRE FIRST SEASON OVER AGAIN AND FINISHED TODAY AND OHMG I CAN’T WAIT UNTIL SEASON 2 COMES OUT ON DVD BECAUSE I AM SO BUYING THAT !@#$%^&* AND SEASON 3 STARTS IN A WEEK AND I AM DYING WITH ANTICIPATION.
Ok. Fangirling finished.
I do thank you and appreciate your kind words, love. My only point is, though, when I am “bigger” it is much more difficult to find clothes that actuallyfit and accentuate/compliment the “assets” that I have. You can wear virtually any top and you would fit into it and it would look nice on you. I can’t because almost every top will make my boobs like even bigger or saggier or won’t fit into any top. I can’t even dress for my body because no one makes clothes for my body.
Again, I absolutely appreciate your kind words, however, I find it still a huge pain to be the “in-between” weight/shape/size, whatever you want to call it; and the more I try to find a dress that will work for me, the more I hate my body.
But, I am trying to eat healthier and get more exercise. I want to be healthy, not stick skinny, just healthy. That’s all. (:
So, I’m trying to find a dress (Shocking, I know) to wear to my cousin’s graduation and I am getting more and more insecure and !@#$%^&* off with every option I look at.
Why?
I have gigantic boobs, a huge ass, and I’m overweight. Like, for my height. I’m 5’10 and I am a double “d” in bra size and my ass is just… big. My thighs are gigantic and everything about my body makes me want to cry.
Here’s the thing: why do we have to watch what we eat and work out like !@#$%^&* maniacs just so we can fit into society’s view of beautiful?
I just want to be able to happy with my body. I want to be able to wear a cute swimsuit and go to my best friend’s pool party without feeling like a !@#$%^&* and feeling disgusting and ugly.
And I am absolutely going to make a change this summer, no question about it, but for right now; this one special occasion, kodak moment, I want to feel pretty and I can’t do that because they don’t !@#$%^&* make clothes for the girls who are in-between: freakishly tall, big breasted, big ass-ed, and slightly overweight.